flashbacks

i just have random flashbacks.
those that just make my heart stop beating.
Those that make me stop and wonder, how it happened

Heaven?

Has anyone seen a stairway to heaven? 
The stairway is as dark as heaven is bright. The road to success is always dark before you see the light. As the night is the darkest before daylight.

:)

Hi! :)

:(

In one of my darkest moments, i want you. where are you darling darling?

help

Even individualistic individuals need some help sometimes.

how do we know

How can we know what the future has in store for us?
What belongs to you today might belong to me tomorrow, and vice versa. How do we secure the things that truly belong to us? Your value is inflated, overvalued. But then again how are we to know my valuation is correct? 
All i want is stability, contradictory to general consensus of change. 
Yes i want change, i approve change, but can't we have a certain degree of certainty. heisenberg's uncertainty principle and shrodinger's cat serve to show that we live in complex worlds where our future, and even the present, are manipulated, controlled, and changing even as we speak. Somewhere out there, lives change. Mine's about to.

=)

boxing day?
sure.
i got box-x-ed like thousand times today.

Sure! watched twilight today.
I tink it din live up 2 the book, although i din read the book.
Movie was fine, a little draggy i felt.
Too much romance, too little action
BUT HEY! i ain't a movie critic =)
go watch it urselves.

Oh, i gt insult-e-ed like thousand times too today.
Call it insulting-day instead.

First time i see my darling darling sleep until she dno wheres the sky and wheres the sea.
My shoulder pain.

Had a gd dinner.

And nope, i'm a bad lover. PWX is wrong.

but nonetheless, i love my darling.

Love has become something, where spending time with that one person alone can mean the world is around you.
But when u're with many people, and she ain't around, you'll still feel alone.
A sense of lack-ness.

A few more things to do b4 i go into NS, which is approx 13 days away?
Tts fast right? =D

if u want a good song, listen to 'two less lonely people in the world'
Tonight i fell in love with you
and all the things i never knew
seemed to come to me somehow
baby love is here and now

Dun avoid it.
let it consume u.
its just so gr8

its amazing

its surprising, how i feel.. alone even though there are so many people around

I rather have one you, then to own the whole world.

Xmas, and i don't wanna talk about japan

Merry xmas.
and i still duwan to talk about japan =)

:)

This is the asshole who slept for damm long.

chalet 45. :)

Chionged to chalet after holiday :) 
Melvrick, my bed partner.. :) 
I turned around and called him darling three times yesterday. Thats how much she's integrated into my subconciousness. Looking back, i'm glad the past 12 days happened. I dun dare to say it was the best trip. But i sure did learn alot from it. With grace from god, lets walk it tgt. 
I love her

:)

Doraemon.
Graffiti. :)

:)

Children.
Japan is the first place i've won little soft toys. :)

White christmas

Whos dreamt of a white christmas? 
Real snow.
I saw falling snow. Beautiful. :)

:)

Japan snows. :)

Wonderful, half of... Twoderful

I have no idea what to type. I'm lost for words

Darling darling. I have nth more to say here.

I don't dare to say more. I hope i take this kinda photo once more, in the future. With the same cast.

Massly, big photo. Bad photo skills, but nice photo. =D

And now Alvin's trying to blow me from the right. PWN tries to BKK me from below

i tink this picture looks suber cute. alvin scolds me 'CB' if u can see his mouth shape.

My goldilocks, and alot of guys -.-

Me and my A-yi. Chio right?

My favourite picture thru the night! =)

PWX, me, YY! lets wish yy i fast recovery from tubercolosis! =x And PWX BKK-ed me

LJX extra at the back. But anw, me clarence and TP. TP has gt a super 'bian tai' face. and clarence, i never knew he was this sick.

Darling darling.

2 maids, Ephraim, and her again!

Even my A-ma gets a shot wif her!

=) she's frigging tall. And chio. Me and my cousin, and guo fei li!

Who else? Best man and bridesmaid! =) Co-stars of the evening. Goldilocks and Brother Bear

Cousin + Mummy. Beautiful cousin- - Elizabeth. 7th oldest grandchild

Godpa and family + My family excluding me -.-

Daddy and his godson-timothy

Me and deariex! - Happy birthday Deariex!

Me, when the stylist tries to style( do something) with your hair

Me and my mum, both kna 'styled'

Night before the wedding. We are all putting some lousy, hot mask. Really hot

love story

will the real me please stand up?

Lost

I just realised i have no idea how lost i am now.
how much i need you.

Falling madly

Which path to take. The hiong or relaxed path?

I think i'm more accustomed to take the hiong path for the next 2 years.
Anw, are night classes that tiring?

I'm not doubting the capabilities of a NSmen, nor am i saying that NS is a waste of 2 years.
I just don't wanna spend 2 years learning how to be a man, and being a man only.
Its the only occasion I don't want to FF(focus fire)
I wanna push, fly, soar.
I don't wna sit, sit and wait for the sky to drop.

I don't exactly want to be a highflyer, i just want to do the best i can.
I can disappoint everyone, but myself.

Love. Falling madly in love. Its the only thing which could, may, would sway me from my path.
Take a relaxed path, the common route, most NSmen walk down
Dug this little cosy nook for myself 3 years ago
This cosy little nook seeks to complement me, yet on how many occasions has it influenced my decision?
This is not to say i don't enjoy the little cosy nook.

My undying passion to spend every minute with it,
Innocent desire to dwell within it.
I love her. I know i do.
But do i love her enough? Enough to steer my course?

Spread my wings and fly. If i have any wings to begin with.
Would you, fufill your promise?
Sit on my wings and fly with me?

15 more hours to the big day.
Kudos to me.
My dad scammed me of my feelings, cheated me of 6 hours of my sleep.
Dang

And lastly, i'm falling.
Falling madly
Falling madly in
Falling madly in love.
The things i'm doing,
i've nvr seen myself do before.
The things i'm so accustomed to doing,
i see myself not doing them.

What a change, what a change

Prom and another wow

Prom was on wednesday. 3rd december.
I din do much for prom actually, re-used a suit, din do anything to my hair, and din even bother to bring a camera =)
But RJ prom, in my opinion, was much better than AMKSS prom.
I don't regret going for it, in fact i think i enjoyed myself.
Walking ard taking photos and talking cock is all I did, but yet the feeling of gladness is so much more intense yet subtle.

Prom ended at 1130. Photos when i get back my G900 k? =x
My classmates weren't very interested in going anywhere, so i had another first experience in my life.
I was pretty lost, so i decided to crash AJ's prom at Marriott Hotel. Saw many people i know and y do ppl look so shocked to see me? xD
Anyway i saw batches and batches of people leaving, and finally left with PWX.
This was cuz his class was going to Clark Quey so i hijacked a ride to prevent myself from bearing the full burden of taxi.
THANKS PWX!
His class very enthu.

Realised that Clark Quey is just behind swissotel, so stupid. -.-

So i spent half an hour looking for butter factory. Like searching for a needle in a haystack, and i'm proud to say i did it. Darling, your love will rlly bring me home. =D

so i spent 2 hours waiting outside(1 to 3), watching people come and go, puke and puke, smile and scold. Countless emotions.
When the clock stroke 3, streams of people poured out. WOW!
I don't even wanna talk about it.

Anyway, i waited for another hour as she spent time with her class.
Emo-ed by the river. Ppl said i looked suicidal, which i don't disagree.
watched ppl go by, looking at me-theidiot- standing there. God knows doing what.
I'm surprised the 4 policemen walked by me w/o saying anithing.
They should have body searched me for some knife or something like that.

My favourite hobby: observing ppl
My lesson learnt: i blend into the crowd very well, and thou who waits like a fool shall look like an idiot.
Anyway thanks to darling darling. =)

Home? Mine. She din wanna wake her parents.
I found a way to break into my house without a key =)
i'm not teaching anyone. xD

Washed off make-up, washed up, bathed and slept. Tt was 7
zz
Day went by as it went by. Nothing much to talk about.
Or should i say there's nothing i can talk about.

Anyway, family discussion today.
=)
Nt too bad nt too good. haha
Saw her home.
I had my wierdest convo with my parents ever. OMG!

Mac-ed! and nites!

wow.

Lets begin wif last friday.
Sentosa-ed with yy, darling, and a couple of cousins plus maids.
Tt's 300 dollars gone =D

Fitted suits and blazers, before having a massive 22??? person dinner.
Probably one of the biggest dinners i had tt did not entail an occasion.
Went home, alvin, laodie, xh, yy, rick, wj came over. Camped.
Mj-ed, won money, happy, sleep. =)

Lesson learnt: big surprises come in the smallest packages and the queer-est ways you can ever think of. When such occasions( big surprises) come out, embrace them with both arms and do not hanker for more. What has to come, will come. What's not meant to come will never do so.

Philo: Challenge yourself, but to a proper and certain extent.
I know i exceeded boundaries liao, sorry so sorry.
Anyway, thrilling ah?

Saturday: Kna woken up. zzz. Chiong-ed, packed, rushed to interchange. No time for lunch, so.. SUSHI!
and den all e way to pasir ris. What the chalet promised at the start, did not fail to deliver at the end.
Sat down in aloha loyang, and bbq food came.
we suck at fire starting, so... so.. sry.

Sunday: morning MJ all e way until 7. WTF? woke up at 12 o clock. Day gone. =x
I believe tt someone out there can elaborate better for me wad happened on sunday. I'm feeling a lil shag.

Monday: i ignored MJ this time and slept at 4 =D
Woke up at 9, disturbed ppl and went out finally. Bowled bowled and bowled. Did i bowl? yes i did. sry can't rmb. =x
Averaged i suppose 80 for all my games?

Tuesday(today): checked out, bowled again. Pushed my average up by 10 points?
Went to find darling darling, went shopping, and home away.
I'm feeling rlly burnt. omg.