=)

half of the world in my palms.
the other half of my world in yours.
Hold my hands,
i have the whole world.


and on a side note
don't screw with my life.
no1 screws around with my life.
each man; a master of his own fate

my broken promises

Young gab makes many promises, breaks many of them. Sry darling.
I'm so protective of you. Overly protective.
I wanna do so many things with you.
You're half my world

I'm talking incoherently. Thats when u know u're in love.
When you have no idea what you're talking about, but nearly every sentence has her within.
every thought involves her,
every mutter concerns her,
every concern is related to her,
when all you say is
i love you.

I've no idea what makes me say iloveyou, i just say it.
it comes instinctively, intuitively.
I know how much it means to both of us,
so every iloveyou comes truly.
Its never said for fun.
So if i say it 19525 times, i meant it for 19525 times.

Allow me to keep saying ilu,
never let me say,
'nites fren'
I nvr wanna be ur fren.
its now or nothing.
i don't settle for in-betweens.
Well, thats gab. He goes for all, or goes for nothing.

He may not always make the right decisions,
He may not have made the right decision this time,
but when he makes a decision, he stands by it.
He dives into the swimming pool without knowing how shallow or how deep it is.
But he dives in, never looking back,
with infinite commitment.
He nvr questions 'why' did he choose this road,
he questions 'how' to complete this road.
He nvr doubts that the road can be completed,
cause with you i know i can.
i know i can.

appreciative

Accommodate and compromise. Theres noone i feel more comfortable with. Noone else i rather spend my time with. Darling, you come first, almost first to everything else. Ingrained into my dna you are. You're the star that my planet revolves around. You are my one and only. Sounds too corny le. Haha

:)

Confinement is over. Cheers people. :)
Ns is great. Thats all to Ns. Its Great! I'm Damm tired. Lights supposed to be out le.

confessions of a teenage heart before it turns a little more maturish

Thanks to everyone for my past 18 years.
1) My parents - for their unwavering dedication towards raising me up. Never failing to be by my side when i have trouble. And never makes noise when i kick them away.
2) My sister and brother - for giving me one of the most wonderful times at home. All the fun, shopping, playing, wrestling, chatting. =)
3) My maids - for nvr failing to clean up the mess i leave behind
4) 23 guys - for being there for the past 7 years. Ya, we've known each other for 7 years liao. since 2003. ( in order of register number)

• Alvin - for calling me a-gua. For playing mahjong and letting me win his money. For providing constructive criticism, or lack thereof. For giving me a shot at the one thing i love so much.
• Siang Ee - For turning up for certain class gatherings and soccer sessions even though he's super bz. For taking my physics tutor number frm me! For the trading of useable, viable knowledge during A lvl's period.
• Melvrick - for hanging his underwear in the chalet. For flooding the bathroom with his ***.
  For being the laughing buddah in class. For being a liverpool fan =)
• Jun xian - For being a gd fren to crap about, crap with, crap on. For being a good role model( with regards to height) to model on. =) For not scolding me when i stepped on his bare feet whilst playing soccer =x
• Jason - For being the class cold cold(ice cold) lamer. For being my one night stand-er. =)
• Laodie - For being my avid dota (AI and non AI) player. For coming over to camp sometimes, and letting me slp on him. =) For having the best ball control our class has.
• LJX - for helping me out with maths... in e past. =) For chatting about problems stemming from class or NPCC. For pang-sehing us so many times =x. and for being the class clown =)
• Matthew - for beign so generous during chalets. and bringing alcohol to get me seh seh. zz
• Shawal - for giving me gd philosophical advice( not that i have none myself), but thanks anyway. For chatting with me on msn. For trying to create the nike-est football play. And for trying to destroy my crotch =x
• Tiong peng - for carrying the soccer ball to and fro. For organising countless soccer sessions. For telling me to start exercising. For all the fun we had bullying LJX tgt =)
• Wei xun- For being one half of the shaolin strike team. =) for entering NS tgt -.-
  For all the crappy pictures, fun crap sessions, and stripping sessions. For being an avid fifa player =) and letting me win him at fifa. =x
• Yee yew - nth to say. Too much to say. I dno wad to say. Thanks =)
• Janice - for being my gd fren thru the past 7 years. For being there to talk to when i needed female perspectives. For turning up in gatherings =)
  our promise to 80 years old.
• Jamie - who promises to give me discounts at MINDS cafe. Who invites me to her house for gatherings, sry i din go =(
  For being so generous =) thanks!!
• Ben ben - for being super nice to his friends and me too. For rarely rejecting me. and being an AI player too =) For being such an integral part of 23. For having 8 lungs. mutated animal =x
• Clarence - for being my buddy thru sec 4 and since den =) for talking to me about problems and vice versa =) thanks man!

5) For the peeps in 08S06M

• Sai Meng - For being my good friend thru 2007, 2008 and many more years to come. For crapping tgt, walking tgt, nvr leaving me alone =)
• Jabez (issueboy) - For being so gay and teaching me to be one. You go in NS today, best of luck =)
  thanks for the chinese lessons, and Subways, though they were quite expensive
• Dongs - for the lanning sessions with ur frens, and the S11 lunches, and MRT rides home.
  the help with homework u provided, the laughter u brought to my face =)
• Rongs - For being so generous with your treats. I'm lost for words with ur generosity =)
  For helping me with work too =) for being a lousy viperhrb =x
  For the lunch sessions, and pangsehing us at times =x
• Ari - for being my sitting partner, avid and pro guitar player, good teacher and rlly cool jokes that sometimes i don't understand. Because they're too cool
• ALI - for visiting my blog. He's the coolest councilor u'll find in RJ! seriously... =)
• Pittro - for all the imbal frisbee sessions, and super rockish in defense when we soccer.
  For the teaching of some indonesian phrases =) hope to see u back in SG soon! =)
• China scholars - for giving me wonderful chinese lessons..and to be more specific
• Tianbo - for being to friendly to my younger brother. I tink he still remembers u. For being there to talk to when i needed someone too =)
• Qing yu, for being a k box imbaness to model on. For not criticising my singing. =)
• Zhang Ying - for being my valuable chinese teacher =) and crapper too
• Yue Mei - for being a very nice person during lectures and tutorials to talk to and crap with. Has super small eyes so i can't tell if she's looking at me =x
• Tang liang - Jabez's fencing mate. Is very fierce, but very nice also. Scolded me once in lecture hall, i've never forgetten it! =D One of the most fluent chinese and english talkers i've seen!
• Lu fei - fellow september baby, if i din rmb wrongly. i hope i didn't. For turning up at class gatherings =)
• Jia xi, part of sleepless gang - for being my chatting partner online and offline. For hearing me grouse, and hearing me swear. x= Thanks hor. and thanks for that wonderful sunrise scene u let me see during chalet =x

6) And last but not least darling

• Theres so many things i wna say. I wonder if the chat box will allow me to finish typing. For giving me more den i could ever expect from anyone else. For enduring my moodswings, my tantrums, my temper. For nvr pushing me away except on rare occasions. For seeing me at my weakest, and not insulting me with it. For being a bad harper, u don't harp on things as long as i do. For letting me be your first, just like you are mine for many things. For giving me the first magical 29th of novermber. For giving me your hand. For taking me as who i am. For trying your best to avoid quarrels, too bad its just in my blood to pick debates. i'm sry.
  for being the one girl i love so much. For experiencing with me blood rushing through the head, thrill in the mind, substantial stress in the body. Thanks darling =)

I find this so much better then typing a bloody scholarship application essay. Screw that man. Applications can wait. Friends can't =)
bye peeps

:)

Wishing all guys going into ns de best of luck. 
Enjoy what you do, and do what you enjoy. 
Dun procrastinate, dun complain, dun whine, dun shrug. :)

:)

Dun underrate my dedication, devotion, commitment to her. Don't.... Just don't 
Ns in two days. I've put down perhaps everything.