ZBG

Zi
Bei
Gan

I exist because of my ZBG.

Major moodswinger with a ZBG. how bad can that get.

Lousiest photo

Long overdue ugly photo. Sorry darling darling. I'm bloging it. :) 
Ilu

=)

darling darling lets make it work.
For now and for ever.

=) =( -.-

wierd, wierd, i feel wierd.
A queer feeling actually.

Wierd: 3. Archaic. concerned with or controlling fate or destiny.

Queer: 2. of a questionable nature or character; suspicious; shady
*official definitions taken from dictionary.com

I feel wierd, My feelings are queer. So is my life
2 hrs can change alot of things.
Time heals all wounds, time puts in more wounds, time does many wonderous things.

Tell me, tell me more.
Man as an insland, or island as a man.
Do all men exist as islands?
Or are all islands actually men.
Men linked by the common factor of curiosity, curiosity of the things going around them, equivalent to the common factor of water.

Knowedge, is fear.
Fear, creates knowledge, experience.

25th november

Darling darling.

Had a rlly hard time getting off the bed(mattress) this morning. Ended up waking at 1230.
Theres goes my plans to run/swim.
Kboxed most of the day away.
The day passed very quickly, somehow.

And i supposedly had my major-est(if theres such a word to begin with) moodswing of my life.
And damn my nose now, its giving me another swing.

Dinnered, in fact, good dinner. =)
So many things coming up soon, firstly chalet!! 29th.
Hope many many ppl come.

Finally, 25th november. Finally.

Btw, darling darling.

Soft toy syndrome

Somehow somewhere somekinda shit, my soft toy syndrome is back. Seems like tugging at my heartstrings is a senselessly fun sport. 
Dump me along with the barbie dolls, my kinda people. Bless me, and bless the world

The day after A's

Wasting my time away, just slacking it away.
Since when did i become such a bum.
So many things waiting to be done, so little zest possessed to go about doing them.

Since when did i become so insignificant. 952am, awake and no reply.
How do you put the f-ed up sign on blogger.

Spoiled mood, gone-cased day, i see no point, in continuing my day.
Down the drain goes another day.

I ain't some kinda play-thing for you to pick up when you want and put down when you've had enough.
I ain't the splinter in a door, waiting quietly for your attention.
I ain't the latex in the rubber tree, waiting to be taken.
Fk i ain't no non-living organism, i'm not blind, deaf, mute or senseless.

I gt tons of emotions waiting behind the dam of the heart, dun unlock the dam.
Noone wants to unlock my dam, i promise a category 7, or even 8.

Dang i have to angst, complain, and whine at 1100am in the morning, WTF.
Teach me how to respond to this.
I can learn everything, but i cannot learn this.

When have i ever faced such uncertainty?
I define certainty in my own life, with 0.01% of uncertainty.
Dang uncertainty, it sucks.

Now what cr8s uncertainty, quantum physics?
Nope, the human heart.
The fickel human heart, and fucking technology.
My god guide me in the correct path i'm supposed to walk down.
A path where passion ain't enough.
A path where i'm able to drop my pride.
A path where i can walk without uncertainty, without fear.
A path where i can walk knowing i can smile everyday.
A path where love may not take you through, but faith shall.
Where faith shall prevail over everything else.
Please don't let me lose faith in you, and everything else in the world.

I hold faith dear, don't go away faith.

19th of november

19th, the glorious yet no-so-glorious-kinda day.

The end of a lvls, the lack of studying for 3 years =)
Depressing yet Inspiring and relieving.
So many tons of things await to be done.
Chalets, outings, and you.

=) =) =)

lets hope i survive the next 3 years.
i got nth to type, some how, i dno y

A long 2 weeks

A lvls are almost over. 2 more papers to go =)
Phy and h3!

Philosopy is all that my brain has now. Lots of philosophy.
So much faith in society, a society that promotes individualism, yet so MUCH criticisms for it.
Am i an individual, or a people kinda person.
An altruist, or an individualist.
Would like to think of myself as a mixture of the two, but .. i dun noe myself all that well.

After 2 weeks of intense exam-ming, i realised, that after A's, theres nth, lack of a purpose.
Maybe i'll find a little house where i can spend 2 months b4 going into NS(9th jan btw)
I'm purchasing more individualism, trading it with altruism.
Society beckons, can we, yes we, take in what society throws at us?
so scared...so scared.